R.I.P

突然而来的信息，心情简直是跌倒……negative infinity
教练他…他……去世了。
刚开始时，我真的不敢相信。
心想：“这怎么可能嘛，上次看到他的时候人还好好的，怎么突然就…”

唉，真的感到很无奈。为何要这样？
少了您，以后的乐团练习也缺乏了那一种气氛。
华乐团，以后该怎么办？
像依琳所说的，
虽然我们的乐团一年不如一年，
但教练他还是对我们不离不弃，
也从来不曾大声骂过我们。
关于这个，我真得非常感谢他。

教练，谢谢您的教诲。
虽然我只是一个很普通的学徒，很可能你也不认识我，
但，您永远都会在我心中。
安息吧。一路好走。

Life in Form 6 (4)

Hello again~ =)

Now, what am I going to write in this post? Hmmm... There's nothing much that happened this two weeks, apart from a few events. Last Saturday, all Form Six students went to SMK Tanjung Chat (which just opened) to receive the wang ehsan, some sort of money given by the government, which is RM 200. As there were also other schools which could received this money, this ceremony was divided into a few sessions, which included the primary and secondary school. My school was in the morning with 2 other schools; SIC and SMK Ahmad Maher. For your information, there were 275 students (Upper and Lower Six) from SMCH, 50 students from SMK Ahmad Maher and 45 from SIC. Can you imagined that??? Ha! Actually, according to Mr. Lim, SIC and AM only have one stream whereas CH comprises two types of streams provided (Science and Arts), So that's why there were so many students from CH. Next, the usual style: speeches given, money given(actually it's just an envelope, the money will be banked into our account automatically), THE END. But there's one thing that I'll remember, which is what Dato Fatmi said in his speech, "Aku ingat mu ore cino semua kayo-kayo belako, mana tau semua layok jugok ambik wang ehsan ni..." Aiya...

Ok, enough of that, I don't want to be a racist. Fast forward to this week, let's see... Oh ya, MUET test. Speaking about that, mine will be this coming Monday, 18th. Right now I feel...nothing. Really. This MUET test started on 12th, and on that day, one-third of my classmate went for the test. Today (14th) is also the test day, and with that, three-quarters of my classmate were absent! Gosh, my class was left with only 10 students! Sin and Tong went for the test today, too. So basically I'm alone... Hmm... I wonder how well have they done today? Good Luck!!!

Oh ya... I nearly forget, something funny and surprising happened today. Whenever I think about this, *beh tahan* I wanted to laugh XD. During Chemistry class, KG really surprised me. Here's a sketch of the conversation:
KG: Eh, Y didn't believed that we are already together.
Me: What? *amte*
KG: She didn't believe that we are couples. 
Me: .............Oh (I sensed what message he's trying to convey)... Aiya, never mind, you know I know is already sufficient, others need not to know, as what matters is the heart.
KG: Okay...

And because it all come out of a sudden, Y just couldn't believed it, and she kept asking us to do the couple stuffs, like holding hands, and If-I-Touched-Him-Will-You-Be-Jealous thingy, etc. Bullshit. And then QW told me something that Y said, which, unfortunately, I can't disclose it here. It'll be too obvious. Actually, you can see that everything is just a bluff. LMAO.

Well, I think that's all for now. Good night.

Life in Form 6 (3)

Ok, I think it's time for me to get serious again and start to post something more readable rather than the last two rubbish posts.

Ok, let's start from last Saturday. In case I haven't told you, I am finally free from my braces! Yippee!!! But heck, now I'm stuck with retainers for another couple of years (roughly). Though it's kind of restraining my speech, I think it'll be fine, because it's detachable! Haha!! And my teeth looks straighter and more compact. XD

School life? Sigh...Pretty much the same, yet it's more stressful. Right now I still have half a month left before the year-end examination and if I can't get a better result I'll have to "roll" right back to SB class, which I'm kind of reluctant. I don't know why. Sometimes I don't know where am I supposed to start, and especially when I saw my classmates all studying, I feel lost. They have their target, yet me? I'm back to my old self, the lazy one. Hopefully someone can wake me up before it's too late and oh, thank God, I have friends that always help me with my studies. =)

On Sunday we'll have to move back to our actual classroom, which is situated way up on the highest floor, roughly two floors above the staffroom, either the fourth of fifth floor, I'm not really sure. Awww...it's really high. Anyway, to rid off the stubborn fats from my abdomen, I'm willing to, I just hope that my class won't be too hot. Aiya, you know why, and I won't be telling much here.

During this whole week we've just had a wave of singing craze. CY wanted to join a singing competition but she just can't really decide on one song, though now I think she already had. Plus, some gang in my class has started to sing, which is quite an entertainment (XD), and if I'm not wrong, Onion is going to participate too. Well, I hope both of them can make it. Good luck!!!

Oh ya, I nearly forget. There'll be a Chemistry test on Sunday and hopefully I won't fail terribly, you know how much my brain memory sucks, right? LOL.

Move Along, Determined.

I've just did the most stupid thing in my life. Wasting an hour's time to check on some girl's wall comments. Not to say that I'm a busybody, but it's urgent. If I haven't done that, I'll still be stuck in the sad memories forever. I'm not joking, because I'm the type who can't really forget easily, well, some particular stuff, of course.

Luckily, yes, luckily, I found it. Finally, I am able to find the reason and courage to get over it and move on with my life. I've been dreading for this day to come, like for the past couple of months. Fortunately, this is another girl from KL, not the last one. Though to me he's a bastard, I still give him my best wishes. After all, he is still my friend, if he still thinks so. Up to him lah.

Now, it's me and my studies. I wonder how will I be able to study so much stuffs?

***

Lord has opened a new world for me, and I will appreciate the opportunity given. What is meant to be mine will be, and what is not will not be, not even by force. I choose to follow Him, and I will listen to His words, and I believe He who is my Father will give me the best. I thank Him for giving me such good friends, and for giving me such a good lesson. Amen.

"Everything that happens in this world happens at the time God chooses. He has the right time for everything. He has given us a desire to know the future, but never gives us the satisfaction of fully understanding what he does. So I realised that all we can do is to be happy and do the best we can while we are still alive."

Ecclesiastes 3: 1, 11-12

Avatar: The Last Airbender

Ahhh...Finally I have found the time to watch Avatar: The Last Airbender. I have finished watching it an hour ago and gosh, it was just as same as the review written in The Star few months ago. Disappointing. And it was only Book 1! Initially I thought the movie was a combination of all four books,and I thought "Hmm...maybe if they split it into four parts it'll be a more enjoyable watch. But as it neared the end, I just realised that it's just Book 1! 

Sigh. 

Even if the graphics were any better (mine was pirated version), it still sucks. Everything's just drop dead serious. Sokka isn't the trying-to-be-serious-but-fails-and-looks-funny one, Aang isn't even funny and childish,blah blah. It doesn't quite stick to the original story, and the main characters were Westerners instead of Asian. 

Oh, there's one funny thing that my Dad just concluded from the adaptation, that the Fire Nation is in India, Earth Nation in Japan and Water Nation in North Pole. About the Air Nomads, well, we can't really be sure, because there only one left. 

Duh, it's just an opinion.Overall, I still like the anime version. =)

I'm a total failure.

What am I trying to do? Or rather, what have I done?

Here am I, trying to act as if it's just a small matter, trying to be the middle person, trying to give advices, trying to mend things up, trying to...

Yet it all boils down to nothingness, nothingness but sadness and misunderstandings.

What's the point anyway?

For what I try so hard? For what? I just want everything to be peaceful! I wanted to preserve our friendship! I don't wan't any misunderstandings to occur among us, that's why I wrote all those things, yet you never understand. You thought that I'm blaming you, you thought that I don't understand you, but do you understand me? Do you?

A few years back, when I have encountered any problems, the old me would have just shut everything up in my heart and say nothing. But now I am more open towards you, trying to share whatever crosses my mind with you, even if it's just some lame jokes that no one will laugh at or even stupid little problems. All this because I wanted to understand you more, and you to understand me, yet now you're saying that I don't understand you. It hurts, really hurts. It was like a bazillion of blades struck deep down into my heart, all at once. It's even worse than when I felt that he doesn't understands me.

I've already lost the guy that I loved so much, and I don't want to lose my best friend. Him, I can afford to lose, but my friends? No, I seriously can't.

If you still think that I've blamed you, if you still think that I misunderstand you, then all I can say is "Fine, then." After all, I've tried...

Larian 1 Malaysia

Just yesterday, we had an event called Larian 1 Malaysia held at Taman Tengku Anis. They said it's open for all Lower Six, but somehow I still saw some CC students there, and of course not to mention Mr Wong Tack Keong, Mdm Chen Swee Fong and CC's 24 Seasonal Drum.

Initially, we thought there will be prizes given, so we made a bet with one of my friends, that if she got no. 1 we will treat her and vice versa. But alas, just after we've finished running, for 3-4 km, the organiser announced that this was only a run for fun, to exercise. (What?!)

LOL. Whatever.

At least we have had fun running like hell, sang the national anthem and Jalur Gemilang, snapping photos, etc. A good workout, but we'll have to pay the price for having sore legs the next day, which I am having it now. Haha.

Later, I went to have some tea with some of my friends at Wau, a shop near the old Hankyu.