Move Along, Determined.

I've just did the most stupid thing in my life. Wasting an hour's time to check on some girl's wall comments. Not to say that I'm a busybody, but it's urgent. If I haven't done that, I'll still be stuck in the sad memories forever. I'm not joking, because I'm the type who can't really forget easily, well, some particular stuff, of course.

Luckily, yes, luckily, I found it. Finally, I am able to find the reason and courage to get over it and move on with my life. I've been dreading for this day to come, like for the past couple of months. Fortunately, this is another girl from KL, not the last one. Though to me he's a bastard, I still give him my best wishes. After all, he is still my friend, if he still thinks so. Up to him lah.

Now, it's me and my studies. I wonder how will I be able to study so much stuffs?

***

Lord has opened a new world for me, and I will appreciate the opportunity given. What is meant to be mine will be, and what is not will not be, not even by force. I choose to follow Him, and I will listen to His words, and I believe He who is my Father will give me the best. I thank Him for giving me such good friends, and for giving me such a good lesson. Amen.

"Everything that happens in this world happens at the time God chooses. He has the right time for everything. He has given us a desire to know the future, but never gives us the satisfaction of fully understanding what he does. So I realised that all we can do is to be happy and do the best we can while we are still alive."

Ecclesiastes 3: 1, 11-12

Avatar: The Last Airbender

Ahhh...Finally I have found the time to watch Avatar: The Last Airbender. I have finished watching it an hour ago and gosh, it was just as same as the review written in The Star few months ago. Disappointing. And it was only Book 1! Initially I thought the movie was a combination of all four books,and I thought "Hmm...maybe if they split it into four parts it'll be a more enjoyable watch. But as it neared the end, I just realised that it's just Book 1! 

Sigh. 

Even if the graphics were any better (mine was pirated version), it still sucks. Everything's just drop dead serious. Sokka isn't the trying-to-be-serious-but-fails-and-looks-funny one, Aang isn't even funny and childish,blah blah. It doesn't quite stick to the original story, and the main characters were Westerners instead of Asian. 

Oh, there's one funny thing that my Dad just concluded from the adaptation, that the Fire Nation is in India, Earth Nation in Japan and Water Nation in North Pole. About the Air Nomads, well, we can't really be sure, because there only one left. 

Duh, it's just an opinion.Overall, I still like the anime version. =)

I'm a total failure.

What am I trying to do? Or rather, what have I done?

Here am I, trying to act as if it's just a small matter, trying to be the middle person, trying to give advices, trying to mend things up, trying to...

Yet it all boils down to nothingness, nothingness but sadness and misunderstandings.

What's the point anyway?

For what I try so hard? For what? I just want everything to be peaceful! I wanted to preserve our friendship! I don't wan't any misunderstandings to occur among us, that's why I wrote all those things, yet you never understand. You thought that I'm blaming you, you thought that I don't understand you, but do you understand me? Do you?

A few years back, when I have encountered any problems, the old me would have just shut everything up in my heart and say nothing. But now I am more open towards you, trying to share whatever crosses my mind with you, even if it's just some lame jokes that no one will laugh at or even stupid little problems. All this because I wanted to understand you more, and you to understand me, yet now you're saying that I don't understand you. It hurts, really hurts. It was like a bazillion of blades struck deep down into my heart, all at once. It's even worse than when I felt that he doesn't understands me.

I've already lost the guy that I loved so much, and I don't want to lose my best friend. Him, I can afford to lose, but my friends? No, I seriously can't.

If you still think that I've blamed you, if you still think that I misunderstand you, then all I can say is "Fine, then." After all, I've tried...

Larian 1 Malaysia

Just yesterday, we had an event called Larian 1 Malaysia held at Taman Tengku Anis. They said it's open for all Lower Six, but somehow I still saw some CC students there, and of course not to mention Mr Wong Tack Keong, Mdm Chen Swee Fong and CC's 24 Seasonal Drum.

Initially, we thought there will be prizes given, so we made a bet with one of my friends, that if she got no. 1 we will treat her and vice versa. But alas, just after we've finished running, for 3-4 km, the organiser announced that this was only a run for fun, to exercise. (What?!)

LOL. Whatever.

At least we have had fun running like hell, sang the national anthem and Jalur Gemilang, snapping photos, etc. A good workout, but we'll have to pay the price for having sore legs the next day, which I am having it now. Haha.

Later, I went to have some tea with some of my friends at Wau, a shop near the old Hankyu.

I don't know, and I don't wanna know.

Sigh.
I don't want to think about it, really. It hurts, and I'm tired, totally fed up.
But sometimes it isn't easy.
My thoughts like to stray away often, and I hate that.
I'm trying hard and struggling to forget everything about you.
Though my feelings for you wasn't as deep as last time, it still left an impact in me.
Someone told me that the easiest way to forget is to find another one, but will that really works?
Won't that be the same as cheating?
I don't know.

There's a guy I met, quite nice, but for now I just wanted to be friends, just friends, as I know I'll just ruined our friendship if I ever tried to like him. IS told me that she's relieved to see me being so close to him, as this means that I am capable of forgetting you.
I do hope so too.

Relationship.
Can I not think about it? Can I hold back my thoughts and feelings? Can I?
God, can you please wake me up?
Please, I don't want to stay in this pathetic "dream".

Life in Form 6 (2) --- [My New Class - L6SPB]

I've just changed class from L6SB to L6SPB on the 4th of July. For your information, L6SB stands for Lower 6 Science Biology and L6SPB stands for Lower 6 Science Physic Biology.

The name itself is DAMN LONG, man. Haha.

Well, according to Lim, the students from this class were sorted out according to their results. I'm not sure about that, but all I know is everyone in my class got As for all three science subjects. The funny thing is, although he said that our class is not of top scorers, you'll still feel that it really is (excluding myself, of course). I'd dare say, the moment when you stepped into my class, you'll feel the tense atmosphere around you. Yup, most are studying. STUDYING!!!!

Damn, it's really the first time I've ever experienced this kind of stress, and it's not even near the exam! Just normal school days!!! In my previous school, we were so relax, no worries, but now? WOW~ No wonder CH students are so brilliant.

And thanks to God, I got a damn GOOD neighbour. At first I do grumble, but now I feel like expressing my gratitude to Him for my neighbour is always criticising me for being lazy. Yeah, I'm serious, because it pushes me to finish my homework in time (maybe only for Maths lah...haha).

Ok, now for the introduction of my class. *tada*

There are 28 students in my class, 2 from Kuala Krai, 4 from CC and the rest? CH lah! See? So kesian, right? But coincidently, the four of us (Sin, Tong Zhi and I) sit together, so we are not that kesian.

LOL.

Now, for the teachers.

PA - Mr. Yean L.H.
He's my form teacher. Quite funny and likes to crack jokes. And oh, he's a Guru Cemerlang too =D

Maths 1 - Lee C.K.
Everyone called her cai kue, because her name REALLY is cai kue (not the spelling, though). Sigh. I'm lazy to describe her lah, because there's too much to say. Haha. Conclusion? I don't like her.

Maths 2 - Lim P.L.
Motherly. But I don't quite understand what's she's saying anyway =P. She's the PKP. Ha!

P/S: For the Biology, Chemistry and MUET teachers, they are still the same, so I'm not going to describe them again. Haha.

Well, I think that's all for now. Another form 6 update? Till then we meet again. =)

2010年基督教张老会北区少年FB福音营

（哈哈~都过了那么久才有时间更新这部落格，paiseh paiseh）

日期：2010年6月7至9日
地点：Rumbia Resort, Paka, Terengganu.

这一次的营会是关于时代少年的爱与性，是一个非常适合少年人的课题。=D

主题：《爱，何处寻？》；讲员：黄百友传道
专题：《性与少年》；讲员：陈奕成牧师
生命的分享：颜敬锡老师（很可惜，颜老师最后还是无法前来与我们分享。 他患上了末期癌症，目前正在与死神争战。愿上帝能帮助他。）

哈哈，不好意思，本人最近超忙又超懒，所以干脆上传照片算了。呵呵~

游戏时间

陈奕成牧师

Woohoo~ 欢乐时光~

黄百友传道

天才园地

与我住同一个chalet的朋友和三位导师

还可以看Astro =)

启程会丹州前

纪念品

大合照