Reflection

Received a call just now, and it's from my ex. I already expected that he would find me but didn't expect it to be a call.

What happened to him was what once happened to me nearly two years ago, with the girl being me and the guy, him (at that time). When he told me that he suspected his gf had less and less feeling towards him lately, a song/idiom just popped up in my mind... What goes around comes around.

Now don't take me as a heartless person. It's just that... it reminds me of the past, of what I've been through that time. I still remembered clearly every piece of details; from the day I suspected his feelings to the day I cried my heart out... and to the day I stand up and face the reality. Now this happened to him, and I saw the past me in the present him, except that he has yet to let it go and get back on his feet. Well, he needs time to nurse his wounds.

No one is to be blamed, as it's either the right person at the wrong time, or the wrong person at the wrong time. I once blamed my ex, just to make myself feel better, but in the end God shed light on me through my mom and by that time I knew, it's just not the right person. I am lucky enough to eventually find one that loves me as he loves the Lord and although I dare not say that he is the right one, as long as we both love God, He will lead our paths and keep us together.

Relationships come and go, and I believe all these happen with a reason, that is to learn and to grow. In everything that we do, there will always be failure and success, it's just a matter of one trying hard to shift the probability to success, and you learn that from past failures. You fall down, you get hurt, but you stand up, lick your wound and move on with something valuable learnt: Experience.

"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger"

-Kelly Clarkson          

This also reminds me of a video by WongFu Production: The Last

Past relationships teaches you, prepares you and shapes your life, so don't be afraid to fall in love again. If you're not sure, be friends first. Don't rush and take one step at a time.

“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?” (Isaiah 43:18-19)

Mid Semester Break

Mid-sem break start on 2nd Nov until 10th Nov, so yah I'm in my hometown now since 2nd Nov. =D

However, it isn't really a holiday that I'll normally look forward to like usual, instead it'll only be a period of time where I can rest without activities, practices, or assignments bugging me. Or you can term the word as "Avoiding". True enough, I'm kinda avoiding something.

This semester is kind of a hectic 1st semester (for 2nd year) to me, irony to the fact that I'm only taking 17 units this semester. For now, I joined Chinese Orchestra, Lifesaving class, Scuba Club, and perhaps, some small events later. My September was basically filled with 3 CO performances, with one not including me, but preparations are time consuming, which I can see from the face of my friend who was totally stressed out during that time (he got a high post actually xD). Following that on October was a month in which I have 2 field trips: 3D2N Langkawi for Oceano and half day trip to Engineering campus for Limno; dance practice for a cultural exchange with Thai Aquatic students, Lifesaving classes and midterms. Nov will be a month of another intensive training for lifesaving, CO and another 2 remaining midterms.

How am I actually going to survive these (@.@)? Oh not to mention I'll be participating in Penang Marathon in the FunRun category haha~

For this semester, I never really have a weekend where I could wake up without setting the alarm, except for one fine Saturday, which I skipped a meeting for that (-.-).

Last two weeks had been a stressful time for me. First time sleeping for 2-3 hours for a couple of days. First time waking up early to study. First time have had dinner at 11pm. First time tears rolling down when I read only one sms, and it's not even from my bf. I really break some of my own records already (-.-).

Senior, although you and I have made it clear that it was just a misunderstanding and you're only being sensitive, still the wound is still there. I've tried to remove it and pretended to be okay but whenever I see you, it hurts. I don't know why but it really hurts. Maybe it's because of the stress from studies, relationship with friends and family matters that builds up so high and in the end triggered a damage by just your sms. It's not your fault, really, it's me who is unable to control it well.

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There are some things that I cannot tell but to keep it to myself, it will be hard but I believe I can do this. I just hope that God can give me a miracle in the end. Please.

I think from now onward it'll take more than a cup of tea to relax my mind.

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Sick and Frustrated

I went to Langkawi for a 3D2N field trip last week under Oceanography, and apart from the experience and knowledge gained and chocolates bought, I also brought back itchy cough + phlegm, which means most of my chocolates are left untouched until now (-.-)

Few days ago my cough went really bad, until I vomited (-.-) and when I finally was able to see the doctor this Wednesday (after Haji, because the clinic was closed that time), she prescribed me these:

7 types of medicine and 2 types of vitamins! OMG!!  I was really dumbfounded when the pharmacist gave me these. The cough syrup makes me really sleepy and although the prescription there said to consume 3 times per day, I just consume once per day, because I'm too busy lately.

Speaking of busy, a few dates (not human) are waiting for me with "knives" in their "hands". An Ichthyology article due this Monday and I'm just starting to search for information, not to mention a Limnology field trip tomorrow morning, fellowship/Oceano rehearsal tomorrow night, Sunday service, CPR demonstration on Sunday noon, Oceano rehearsal again Sunday night, performance on Monday night and two different quizzes next week. See? I basically have no time but today to type my article and thanks to my bad habit in time management, I'll be rushing like hell today. (>.<)

Another big problem here. I promised my friend (junior) to return her books by today after borrowing them to photocopy, and I passed those books to my classmate who is so good to offer her help in photocopying it (coz she also need it, duh). Who knows... WHO KNOWS... when I asked her just now if I can get the books back today, she said, "Cannot, Sunday only can." Reasons? She was busy yesterday and today (after I called) then only she went to the shop to photocopy. An even "good" news: the shop is closed on Saturday, which means latest I can get it is on Sunday (wth...). Hey I thought you already sent the books to the shop on Wednesday when you went to print our report??? I'm also busy wey! Doing things that I'm not supposed to be doing at all! Designing costumes and practising for a dance? Give me a break please! I have lifesaving and swimming classes to attend, fellowship treasurer things to deal with, chinese orchestra matters, etc. Next time don't even mention "I'm busy" to me. *eyes rolling*

Okay I know it's my fault too for not photocopying early. Ish....

A crazy semester indeed. It is fun to learn new things, but please don't let small, unnecessary things become a priority. I still need to study and pass this semester!

中秋节我不快乐

刚才打开FB，看见的都是朋友们一个一个“中秋快乐！”的post、月饼的照片、和朋友吃月饼的照片、受到朋友寄来的中秋寄语和月饼等等...

看到大家是多么的开心...

再看看自己，不管从哪个角度看，还是那么凄凉。不禁让我想起最近发生的事。一直以来都把他们当着是好朋友，到头来还是被遗忘了。

在大学，的确很难找到好朋友。

幸好，今天大学的Brother约了我和几个朋友去看电影，至少我没孤单的过中秋节。不过呢，月饼还不是自己订自己吃 =.=

算了，不想写了，越写越伤心。再见。

It's A Cold Cold Day

Brrrrr...... so cold today! I feel like I've been living in an air-conditioned room for the past few days. >.<
It has been raining everyday ever since I came back to Penang and even before that. That only increases my sleeping mood and decreases study mood more. /.\

When I reached my hostel on Sunday, I thought I'll have to clean my room till my back ache or whatsoever, luckily my cozy room wasn't as dirty as I thought. However, I found something quite speechless...

WTH is this.... snake's skin??? O.O|||

Okay since I didn't find anything suspicious (like tree snake lingering) other than that, so I assumed my room is safe *fingers crossed*

Anyway after an hour or so of sweeping and wiping, I'm left with these to unpack =.=
 

 Worst thing ever! Okay that's because I got a lot of those little stuffs that I'm kinda reluctant to get rid off. Wonder why can I become like that HAHAHA~

Anyway, I've kinda settled down and adapted to my university life again, after a few struggles and stupid jokes. xD

My dear room mate? Still as blur as ever haha~ But then I'm still lucky to have her as room mate.

Oh ya I remembered something, got this and a small cup of apple juice when I'm in the plane on the way back to Penang. 

My first time boarding the plane alone and I got this kinda hospitality, not bad as it made me feel like I'd take another flight again next time. =D

But then my teaspoon broke in half when I was opening the biscuit can just now =.=

Haha okay I'm speechless now, so going to end my entry here. See ya soon!

Going Back to USM

Here I am... Again.

Now I noticed that most of the time when I blogged, my mood is usually in a mess, and I hated that.

You know, I planned to blog about the desserts that I made a few weeks back, but was either too busy/too lazy/don't have the drive at all. Da Hell...

And now I'm still packing my bag plus searching for student cab, etc, and the worst thing is, I'm going back tomorrow. =.=

Damn I ain't feeling like going back, even if it does, I hate to do things all in one go. Right now I have a video to complete, luggage to pack, songs to download, and so on. ARGHHHHHHHHHHH

Oh... as I'm typing this, one matter is cleared, which I already found a student cab, YAY! Mood's getting better now. Just now was really down down down...

Hmm I think I'll blog again when I'm free, right now I'm going to continue with the packing.

Thank you Lord for answering my prayers and thanks Cher for comforting me =' )

432 Miles Apart

From 5 minutes apart to 432 miles apart in just a half a day... Gosh I'm starting to miss him already. =(

Never mind, I know we'll meet up eventually, and distance will make us stronger!
Here goes LDR! - feeling oomph

Haha yah I know I'm a bit crazy now, can't help it though. *shrug*

Meanwhile, I'm going to start my exercise plan soon as I'm getting fatter at the wrong place (damn!) and some fat prawn keeps laughing and reminding me at that. >.<

HERE IT GOES! MOTIVATION PLEASE KEEP ME THERE!